“I feel like I have a purpose”: Turia Pitt opens up about being a mum
Inspirational burns survivor Turia Pitt has penned an emotional blog post about her son Hakavai and how she feels about being a mum.
Turia beautifully describes the intensity of the “new world” she’s living in and the emotions that come with parenthood.
The 30-year-old wrote, “When I’m breastfeeding, it’s primal.
“It’s a weird kind of nice to be needed so… desperately. I swear I can feel myself literally falling towards him with love (thank you oxytocin!).
“When he screams at 3am, I’m irritable.
“When he does something for the first time, I feel like I’m gonna burst with pride (even though the rational part of me knows that most of the 350,000 kids born each day reach these same milestones).”
At the start of her blog post, Turia jokingly left a disclaimer that her writing “may cause nausea and dizziness” due to her “flowery” description of motherhood.
However, the first-time mum did not fail to mention the worry and panic attached to motherhood.
“When he’s sick, I’m panicked, anxious.
“When I’m sick, I wish he had a volume control.
“When he’s sleeping, I feel gratified.
“When he smiles, I feel like I have a purpose.”
She then described the worry that overpowers her.
“When I tell other parents how much I worry about him (Is he too hot? Is he too cold? Is he hungry??!!) they laugh and tell me to get used to it!
“At night I find myself checking to see if he’s still breathing,” she wrote.
Turia described the love for her five-month-=old child with partner Michael Hoskin as “the most raw and visceral feeling”.
“It’s a kind of love I simply couldn’t have imagined before I had him.
“I love his masses of black hair (admittedly it has thinned somewhat).
“His ski jump nose (mine). His ears (Michael’s).
“The way his eyes get all doughy and dopey when he’s milk drunk.
“I feel like it just can’t be healthy to love someone as much as I love Hak.”
Describing motherhood as a “privilege” Turia wished a Happy Mother’s Day to all mums, whether they be in need of a glass of wine, about to lose it, frustrated, blissful and everywhere in between.